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Apr. 20th, 2008 @ 09:54 pm Recent update....
So it's been... interesting the last few weeks. As most of you know I spent a large portion of this weekend in a state I like to call "walking Delerium" meaning I was sick, so sick I threw up both at work then at home a buncha times. I went home early from work to hug the toliet at home... note to self, bathroom is not as comfy as one at dad's place... must invent bathroom that is made to hold a puking individual. felt better yesterday and went to Jay mack's birthday bash at Mikes....Was very good to be hanging out with the guys again. I didn't realize how much I missed it. Brought back a lot of good memories.

rewinding to a week ago....My anger finally found an outlet and got away from me. Poor plastic covering on the gounding wire for the electricity. it didn't do anything wrong but be in the wrong place at the wrong time...I unleashed on it and broke it... ohh well, better that then someone's head. it actually felt nice to do that though....Was hard to be angry after that, I now know why people automatically want to smash things when their angry.

Beltain is coming up and I can't wait for it. I love this time of year and it's great to have everyone together.... The only thing that will spoil it will be the childish politics that some people play that make me want to leave. Why must it always happen? Doesn't matter much, being the low man on the totem pole there's not much I can do about it and my voice means little to nothing out there so I just drift from place to place to avoid the majority of it.

Thats my rant for now.

Justin
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Apr. 13th, 2008 @ 04:08 am (no subject)
Current Mood: angry
..... This is gonna be the most irritating post I've ever made, hard to believe eh?

So this is a rant of sorts, well I don't think I can classify it as a rant as I can't really go into details about it and frankly...thinking about it makes me wanna hurt people. This in on itself should be sufficient enough to tell you just how pissed off I am. So here goes, this will have little structure as I'm tired and rambling.

1) I'm offically sick and tired of Giving of myself to help others. I don't know why I bother sometimes and this is no different. I mean sure, I should have been more careful and kept my usual guards up.... but I didn't and now I'm just angry. more at myself then anyone else but angry enough to lash out physically. It was interesting for awhile to feel how alive rage can be. Now it's gone and I'm simply left with a sickening feeling in my stomach and a lot of self-loathing.

2) I hate how fucked up I've become. I'm 23 years old and I'm as bitter as a 59 year old spinster. Somewhere along the line I got hurt... It happens, but unlike most people I let it happen again, and again and again. Until it's gotten to the point that even though I kinda want to give it a go again, I cant because of who and what I am. Who am I? I dont know and I've lost all reason to care about finding out at the moment. What am I? simple, I'm your friendly neighborhood man-slut. yep that's me, the easy lay and not attachment guy. part of which is the reason why I'm viewed as bad dating material to most women I know. The other part... well that's another rant all together.

Thats it, I'm done thinking about this and being mad... bad month to be a Viking I guess....damn blooodlust is turning it's head.

Justin
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Mar. 30th, 2008 @ 11:44 pm Burning out like a dying Sun...
Current Mood: weird
Current Music: You Ruined everything- Jonathan Coulton
So it had to happen sometime... I'm burning out on creativity. Running 1 LARP and playing in 2 and possibly another one is making the well run dry. Half the time I stress about what I'm going to do for my game, and the rest I'm trying to remember what each character is doing... which makes it fun around note time as the notes are due around the same times for each game.

But all in all the game is going well. The players are slowly getting the point and acting accordingly. I may just leave things and see what happens. I'm tired of staying up wondering about things and work is making me cranky as the management is being complete dicks again. bitching at us for calls being in the que and don't get that 24 people can't do the work once done by over 40. meh I'll just do my job and go home... I still like it better then Gen res.
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Mar. 30th, 2008 @ 06:22 pm (no subject)
[the wicca & witchcraft survey]
[basics]
name::Justin
age::23
how did you get into wicca?:wicca? simple, I blame Morg:P
how long have you been wiccan?:3-4 years
are you solitary or have a coven?:yes
what tradition of wicca or witchcraft do you practice?:Alexandrian/Gardenarian is what I've been trained in.
[your gods/goddesses]
what pantheon[s] do you use?:Norse for the most part.
do you have a patron goddess?:Not that i'm aware of...i'm pretty oblivious.
god?:Odin
how did you choose them? or your panethon?:I didn't, he chose me and I've never looked back
how long have you been working with them?:3-4 years
did they find you or you find them?:see above
[your magick]
what kinds of magick do you practice?:mostly energy works
whats is your fav kind?:see above
do you follow the rede?:no
did you learn magick or wicca first?:magic...no f'ing K
what kind of magick do you do most often?:energy
do you do candle magick?:yes
stone?:no
herbal?:no
where do you get your supplies?:everywere
do you always use a circle when doing spells?:no
do you have any fav boooks on magick?:no
have you ever done hexes or do you stay completely away from that?:nope
what about binding spells?:yes
what are your magickal ethics?:Fuck not lest ye be fucked.... Do no harm, honor above all.
do you believe in the 3 fold law?:nope, shit happens.
do you do any darker magick? [not bad, dark]:colours mean nothing
what about night magick?:night, day..it is what it is.
ceremonial magick?:only on hoildays
[your diviniations]
do you do tarot?:lol no
do you have a deck? and what kind?:no
how good are you at it?:nerver tried
do you do runes?:Yes
do you have a set? what kind?:yes, Norse made by clay from morg
do you use them for magick?:sometimes
do you study astrology?:nope
whats your sign?:Aquarius
are you like your sign?:not overly
do you do predictions? [horoscopes]:nope
what about any psychic fortune telling?:only with runes
do you read tea leaves?:nope
or scrye?:no
any other divination that you do?:nope
[your familiars]
do you have any familiars?:no
how many?:12343256547434
names and type of animals?:there is no short cut for NO is there?
real or in the astral realm?:????
any mythical creatures?:I like Dragons
did your familiars find you or you find them?:I like pie
are you looking for any familiars? what animals/creatures?:no
do you do any magick with your familiars or have you yet?:Rabbits and bunnies should have a genocidal war
[your beliefs]
what do you believe about the origin of the universe?:Big bang with Divine assistance
death?:it hapens
what do you believe about what happens during reincarnation?:your born as something else....depends on your view of karma
what are your thoughts about soulmates?:just a fancy word for love.. and you can love more then one person....at least i do.
the law of 3? or karma?:law of 3 is a bit much.. karma is what it is.
what is the soul?:I dunno, I lack one:P
the meaning of life?:what you make of it.
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Mar. 22nd, 2008 @ 01:14 am Game 1 over and now for notes......
Well the first game for the new ptbo LARP went well. Everyone had fun and most plots got started without too much pushing.... Now comes the dreaded notes....

CAN PEOPLE REALLY BE THIS FUCKING STUPID?

I mean, my notes (when i did them) sucked ass I admit it. but at least I put some effort in to them. I mean it's not rocket science, 2 major actions, 2 minor and influence/ghouls. I got one note that was 3 lines.....that's it.

1 line for major, 1 for minor and 1 for influence..... like wtf???

I feel I'm going to end up slapping a few people in the back of the head.
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Feb. 17th, 2008 @ 11:23 pm It's about to begin......
So it's almost time. That's right march is just around the corner and with the coming of March also comes my take over of the Peterborough LARP game. I say mine but really it's a partnership with Mattie. I mean sure he's a flake and a bit of a helmet special individual, but once you get him calmed down and focused he's not so bad. We've come up with a pretty good game idea. This all hinges on the players really.

I've not recieved many concepts and histories as I would have liked and the one's I have with 1 exception haven't thrilled me to much. I guess some people seemed to think that because Mattie is working on it that they can be fucktards and ask for dumbass shit or make stupidass statements like "I killed demons". Well I've put up with this for awhile, I can't wait for their faces when what they thought they got away with actually didn't happen at all. Will be glorious and hopefully will knock some sense into them.

Bah I'm sure I worry too much. I really wanna get this off the ground.

I've lost my train of thought.

Justin
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Feb. 15th, 2008 @ 12:03 am Once more around the sun
Well,

I guess I got older today. Seems like a hollow statement really. I was born old and I'll die old. I hardly need a day to remind me of my impending death.

Like every year this one was little exception. People with not enough sense to leave well enough alone keep throwing "Happy birthday" at me. I only assume they do this because they believe it's expected, not because they care or actually want me to have a "happy" birthday. Unlike most people I don't have happy birthdays. I have a day were nothing goes right, and leaves me with the craving for violence.

I digress and frankly I don't care enough to actually write this all out again. While I appreciate the gesture most of you made in saying it... please refrain from doing so in the future. I'm not joking around when I say I hate the day of my birth. Your continued non-compliance with this will result in Harsh Sanctions.

Justin.
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Jan. 31st, 2008 @ 03:11 pm Bored
Who comments the most on this journal? )
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Jan. 19th, 2008 @ 01:50 am Because I'm freaking bored
Two names you go by:

1. Justine
2. The Savage(new nickname from Cargo class)

Two things you are wearing right now:
1. Comfy pants
2. THE BLOOD OF THE INNOCENT

Two of your favorite things to do:
1. Listening to muzak
2. read

Two things you want very badly at the moment:
1. More monies
2. A new Tattoo


Two favorite pets you have had/have :

1. My Dragons
2. Rufus my long dead Ferrit

Two people who will fill this out: Sorry there are only spaces for two so.....

1. Don't know
2. Don't Care

Two things you ate today:

1. Pizza
2. Frogurt

Two people you last talked to:

1. Brando
2. Rose

Two things you're doing tomorrow:

1. Packing
2. writing


Two longest car rides:

1. To Montreal and back
2. Around Ontario with my dad

Two favourite holidays:

1. Beltaine
2. anytime I go away in my mind


Two favorite beverages :

1. Barqs Rootbeer
2. Mead
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Jan. 6th, 2008 @ 01:29 am Stolen from the barkman
What Justin Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.
You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.
You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
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Dec. 11th, 2007 @ 10:59 pm Game Idea
Hey all,

So I've got this idea for a rpg I might be putting together on RPOL. recently and more then likely much to Heathers disdain I've been watching a lot of the show "Andromeda"...Yes Heather I know... it's Hercules in space...anywho, I've really gotten to like the story line and I thought it would make a good game. It'll be pretty much freeform with the exception of rolls for combat and the like.

So as a prelim anyone interested in actually doing this?

Let me know.

Justin
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Dec. 9th, 2007 @ 08:45 pm (no subject)
1. Tell you why I friended you.
2. Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a colour, a photo, etc.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
5. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
6. Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.
7. In return, you can post this in your LJ.
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Nov. 19th, 2007 @ 10:53 am Rantings of a bored gimp
Current Mood: gimped
Rant #1

So I'm suppose to be at work but instead I'm laid up with a damaged foot. possibly more damaged then I assumed. I believe I sprained my ankle last night on my way home from work. The funny part is, I did it 30ft outside of the work place. that still left me with 2 miles(give or take) to walk home. With the uncertainty of money in the bank I had to walk it. needless to say it didn't make it better. so today I've got a left ankle the size of a softball and walking induces all kinds of fun little aches and pains. I'm debating on going to emerg because there is a good chance I did more then sprain it. But I'm trying to avoid that as much as possible. The last thing I need is a fractured ankle or torn muscle. Pretty much the worst thing for a guy who likes to walk to work can have.

Rant #2

I've got a new pet peeve that has recently developed over the last while. I'm going to dub it "newlyweds syndrome". I'm getting annoyed to the point of violence with having to see "I LOVE MY HUSBAND/WIFE" every time I open my MSN or read facebook. I get it, your happy to be married. NOW SHUT UP. I don't give a damn and really shouldn't have to be put through all the little "joys" of your newfound prison. This is almost as nausiating as "newborn Syndrome". I'm aware that some people might enjoy hearing these things. I'm also aware some people think genocide is a good idea sometimes.

I'm not bitter, I'm just annoyed at having to look at it and hear about it....though I'm a bit cranky so this may pass... I doubt it but who knows.

Though I would like to add not all newlyweds have this condition. Some very good friends of mine tied the knot 3 months ago and didn't come down with this. Much to my joy. Though to be fare they're very down to earth people so that helps.

bah, enough ranting for one day.

Justin
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Nov. 5th, 2007 @ 12:32 pm Current events and such.....
So been awahile since my last rant/bitch fest. Might as well do an update. Though why I even write in this thing anymore is a bit beyond me. Everyone who reads this already knows whats going on.... actually there are a few of you who I don't talk to on a regular basis and more then likely won't.

So I'm on holidays right now. nice little 9 day break from work. It's nice, Though I'm sure I'll be fantastically bored by day 4. This weekend was pretty good. Got to hang out with Bark and Heather for a bit on saturday which was great. I don't get to hang with them as much as I'd like so was a good way to wake up with them pounding on my door:P. After that went and hung out with Chris and Anita. Was a good time as well. was up late and woke up early.

Got back home and just putted around the house for a bit. made dinner and Rose got some more sleep. 7pm rolls around and I headed out to Kenny's LARP game. Was a bit of a waste of time if gaming was on the agenda. Was mostly Combat thanx to mattie but I got to socialize with some friends so it wasn't a complete waste.

I can't wait for this friday. Gaming weekend at casa de Barker. Geekfest galor.

Well that's all I got for today. wasn't a bitchfest so that's alright...

Justin
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Oct. 5th, 2007 @ 10:19 pm (no subject)
Actual Call Center Conversations...

1. Customer: "I've been calling 700-1000 for two days and can't get through; can you help?"

Operator: "Where did you get that number, sir?"

Customer: "It's on the door of your business."

Operator: "Sir, those are the hours that we are open."

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2. Samsung Electronics

Caller: "Can you give me the telephone number for Jack?"

Operator: "I'm sorry, sir, I don't understand who you are talking about."

Caller: "On page 1, section 5, of the user guide it clearly states that I need to unplug the fax machine from the AC wall socket and telephone Jack before cleaning. Now, can you give me the number for Jack?"

Operator: "I think it means the telephone plug on the wall."

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3...RAC Motoring Services

Caller: "Does your European Breakdown Policy cover me when I am traveling in Australia?"

Operator: "Does the product name give you a clue?"

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4. Caller (enquiring about legal requirements while traveling in Europe)

"If I register my car in France, and then take it to England, do I have to change the steering wheel to the other side of the car?"

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5. Directory Enquiries

Caller: "I'd like the number of the Argo Fish Bar, please"

Operator: "I'm sorry, there's no listing. Are you sure that the spelling is correct?"

Caller: "Well, it used to be called the Bargo Fish Bar but the 'B' fell off."

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6. Then there was the caller who asked for a knitwear company in Woven.

Operator: "Woven? Are you sure?"

Caller: "Yes. That's what it says on the label -- Woven in Scotland."

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7. On another occasion, a man making heavy breathing sounds from a phone box told a worried operator:

"I haven't got a pen, so I'm steaming up the window to write the number on."

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8. Tech Support: "I need you to right-click on the Open Desktop."

Customer: "OK."

Tech Support: "Did you get a pop-up menu?"

Customer: "No."

Tech Support: "OK. Right-Click again. Do you see a pop-up menu?"

Customer: "No."

Tech Support: "OK, sir. Can you tell me what you have done up until this point?"

Customer: "Sure. You told me to write 'click' and I wrote 'click'."

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9. Tech Support: "OK. At the bottom left hand side of your screen, can you see the 'OK' button displayed?"

Customer: "Wow! How can you see my screen from there?"
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Sep. 19th, 2007 @ 08:47 pm Stolen from teh rob
'm curious.. please fill out and then post so I can fill yours!

1. Do you have a tattoo?
2. How old are you?
3. Are you single or taken?
4. Eat with your hands or utensils?
5. Do you dream at night?
6. Ever seen a corpse?
7. George Strait or Jay Z?
8. How did we meet?
9. What's your philosophy on life and death?
10. If you could do anything with me, and have no one know, what would it be?
11. Do you trust the police?
12. Do you like Country music?
13. What is your fondest memory of me?
14. If you could change anything about yourself what would it be?
15. Would you cheat?
16. What do you wear to sleep?
17. Have you ever peed in a pool?
18. Would you hide evidence for me if I asked you to?
19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
20. Which do you prefer - short or long hair?
21. Do you sing in the shower?
22. What's your favorite color?
23. If you could bring back anyone that has passed, who would it be?
24. Tell me one interesting/odd fact about you?
25. What was your first impression of me?
26. Have you ever done drugs?
27. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?
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Sep. 5th, 2007 @ 07:43 pm (no subject)

Your Score: House Greyjoy


54% Dominant, 45% Extroverted, 45% Trustworthy



Brutal. Opportunistic. Unforgiving. Rising again, harder and stronger, you are of House Greyjoy.

You are a dominant personality. Although you are neither the strongest nor the most cunning, you bend the weaknesses of others to your own advantage. Extremely opportunistic, you are the Wendy Pepper of Westeros, letting everyone fall over themselves and get tangled up before springing lightly over the pile of bodies. When others criticize you, you’re more likely to cut out their tongue than lend an ear. Your arrogance is hard-wired into you to such a degree that you barely recognize other human beings to be of your same species, let alone your equals.

You are also introverted, which means that nobody knows what the hell is going on inside your head. Spontaneous and extremely impulsive, your actions will always take people by surprise. As such, it’s unlikely that you have many friends or allies in the wide world; people just don’t find you trustworthy. And there’s a reason for that, too, which is...

You’re untrustworthy! You are opportunistic, greedy, stubborn, and more-than-willing to climb over anyone you must to get to the top. You are unwilling to compromise on anything, and instead of using strategy, you try to eliminate as many of the other players as possible. Let’s face it—by conventional moral standards, you’re just not a very admirable person. Perhaps if you stopped laughing when people cut their fingers off at your dinner parties...?

Representative characters include: Aeron Greyjoy, Asha Greyjoy, and Victarion Greyjoy

Similar Houses: Baratheon, Frey, and Lannister

Opposite House: Tully

When playing the game of thrones, you play it buck naked, flappin’ in the breeze.

Link: The Song of Ice and Fire House Test written by Geeky_Stripper on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test
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Aug. 10th, 2007 @ 12:29 am Somethings gotta give....
Current Mood: aggravated
ok here's mt rant on my own stupidity and the gaming industry at large... also some life stuff to.


ok here's the deal. I decided to go out and buy Guitar hero.. why? because I liked the game. so I buy a wireless guitar(the only one's you can get nowadays) from futurshop as they had it on for the lowest in town and bought the game used from EB. game was scratched all to shit and wouldn't play past a certain point. I return it and bring the new one back. this one doesn't play at all. So since rose was out and about today she brought the game back and paid the difference for a brand new one. I get home from work, check my interweeb stuff and set to play. Ya I suck at it but it's alot of fun. I set the guitar down after playing "turning Japanese" and get a drink. I come back to play and I got nothing. remember I SET it down, not throw, not slam not even toss...SET. Now the damn thing dosen't work. so I thought the batts ran out. I head out to the store to get some. upon my return I remove the old one's and insert the brand new one's that had just been made this year,...(yes I was so pissy I checked) still nothing. so after ranting and raving for about 2hours I decide that maybe...just maybe something got loose. So I take the damn thing apart and see if anything like that happened... no, everything is as it should be. So the final tally is, 3 different games, and possibly 2 guitars....if I can find my damn recipt. if not I'll see about getting it fixed.. if not..I'm gonna pilliage futureshop....

Other then that work is ok... nothing exciting or fun.. just ok. better then my last job but still not really a step up. I need to actually do something soon. maybe go back to school or find a job that's worth while... my old complaints... ahh well.

/fin

Justion
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Jul. 26th, 2007 @ 09:36 pm Lately.....
SO... things have been random lately. Work goes well, it's easy work for decent pay. I feel sometimes like it's a waste of time being there the entire day. Seems like I spend most of my time letting everyone else catch up. Most of my life has gone through the same course... I'm just waiting for others to catch up. Sure that's arrogant and snoobish of me to say....yet I feel it's truth.

The bitch of the thing is.... I always feel like I'm left behind... or stuck there.

Since the Aphrodite Invo I've had this feeling that has been occuring in rapid frequency. I get the feeling I want to hit something or someone. I just feel irritated and violent for most of my day and I have to keep from lashing out at innocent people. Funny thing is, I don't know why I feel this way. There's no reason or catalyst. Some could say it's because I never lash out or release my anger and rage. Others will claim it's because I'm angry at myself and it's easier to punish others then to punish myself.

Both would be correct, yet which one is more correct? I'm in a relationship I really don't care about, I live in a place I really don't want and I spend all of my life I've sacrificed my own happiness for that of others... and yet I can't stop myself.. funny how we stick to an insane construct simply because it's what we do.

I guess I just wanted to rant.

Justin
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Jul. 9th, 2007 @ 05:50 pm Almost-Bowling for soup.
I almost got drunk at school, at fourteen
Where I almost made out with the Homecoming Queen
Who almost went on to be Miss Texas
But lost to a slut, with much bigger breast-es
I almost dropped out to move to LA
Where I was almost famous for almost a day

And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost loved you
I almost wished you would've loved me too

I almost held up a grocery store
Where I almost did five years and then seven more
Cause I almost got popped for a fight with a thug
Cause he almost made off with a bunch of the drugs
That I almost got hooked on cause you ran away
And I wish I would've had the nerve to ask you to stay

And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost had you
And I didn't even know it

You kept me guessin' and now I'm destined
To spend my time missing you
I almost wish you would've loved me too

Here I go, thinking 'bout all the things I could've done
I'm gonna need a forklift, cause all the baggage weighs a ton
(baggage weighs a ton)
I know we've had our problems, I can't remember one

I almost forgot to say something else
And if I can't fit it in, I'll keep it all to myself
I almost wrote a song about you today
But I tore it all up and then I threw it away

And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn't cut it
Almost had you
And I didn't even know it

You kept me guessin' and now I'm destined
To spend my time missing you
And I almost had you (almost had you)
Almost had you

I almost wish you would've loved me too (wish you would've loved me too)

Ya I'm in love with this song right now.
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singalong, RAPE!!!!!!!!, Grammaton Cleric, Murphy, PAIN, slaughter, Ohh yeah!!, Dragons, Mal, Rosary